| how does one expect such a relationship to heal overnight... through all of the grief, pain, self-doubt, sleepless nights, anger, and hurt this has caused... a hurt so deep and so great to my heart i could never even begin to describe it... you lied to me, you betrayed me, you defied me... and i dont hold it against you... i dont say that to be arrogant... i truly mean it... its going to take time, wounds so big and so battered cant heal overnight... and in time it will pass and i hope all this crap will... i want you to be my go to girl, thats how i always pictured you on this team, and i still want it to be that way... but its going to take some time for me to lick my wounds and get back up on my feet b/c this totally blindsided me and hurt me in a way i cant begin to tell you... please forgive me for anything that ive done that you feel wronged you... that was never my intent, never, ever... forgive me |
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| i must say... ive never been more discouraged about worship team and any and all related topics than i have this week... one of our best weeks turned out to be one of the worst for me... you think this isnt stressful for me?!? until you can see me as a leader.. im failing at being one... |
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